Cheslie Kryst‘s mother is opening up about losing her daughter.
The former Miss USA’s death was ruled a suicide, the New York City Office of Chief Medical Examiner 向人们确认 周二. 她曾经是 30 岁.
“I have never known a pain as deep as this. I am forever changed. 今天, what our family and friends privately knew was the cause of death of my sweet baby girl, Cheslie, was officially confirmed,” 她妈妈, April Simpkins, said in a statement obtained by PEOPLE.
“While it may be hard to believe, 这是真的. Cheslie led both a public and a private life. In her private life, she was dealing with high-functioning depression which she hid from everyone — including me, her closest confidant — until very shortly before her death,” Simpkins continued.
Although Kryst’s “life on this earth was short, it was filled with many beautiful memories,” 她妈妈写道.
“We miss her laugh, her words of wisdom, her sense of humor and mostly her hugs. We miss all of it — we miss all of her. She was a vital part of our family which makes this loss even more devastating,” Simpkins added.
“Cheslie — to the world, you were a ball of sunshine wrapped in smiles. We talked, FaceTimed or texted one another all day, 每天. You were more than a daughter — you were my very best friend. Talking with you was one of the best parts of my day. Your smile and laugh were infectious,” 她继续. “I love you baby girl with all my heart. I miss you desperately. I know one day we’ll be together again. 直到那时, rest easy and in peace.”
In lieu of flowers, Simpkins asks that any donations be made to Dress for Success, “an organization that was dear” to her daughter’s heart.
“If you or anyone else is struggling with thoughts of suicide, please contact the National Suicide Hotline at 800-273-8255,” 她补充说. “Thank you all for continuing to respect the privacy of our family while we grieve.”
Simpkins’ own history with beauty pageants had a profound impact on Kryst as a child.
在 2002, Simpkins was named Mrs. North Carolina — becoming just the second Black woman to hold the title, 根据 Charlotte Observer.
“I remember watching her win and going to appearances with her during her reign,” Kryst, who was also an attorney and social justice advocate, 写了 在一个 2019 blog post for the North Carolina Bar Association. “Her title provided her with a platform to advocate for issues that were important to her and people listened.”
The experience inspired Kryst to start competing.
“It was a time in my life when I didn’t know who I was and wasn’t confident in myself. I was that little weird kid who had a unibrow and didn’t have any friends,” 她说 2019, 根据 美联社. “I thought I want to be just like her.”
Following her death Sunday, 这 额外的 correspondent’s family remembered her for inspiring others “around the world with her beauty and strength,” they wrote in a 陈述.
“Cheslie embodied love and served others, whether through her work as an attorney fighting for social justice, as Miss USA and as a host on 额外的. 但最重要的是, as a daughter, 姐姐, 朋友, mentor and colleague — we know her impact will live on,” 他们补充说.
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