Cheslie Kryst‘s mother is opening up about losing her daughter.
The former Miss USA’s death was ruled a suicide, the New York City Office of Chief Medical Examiner confirmado para PEOPLE na terça-feira. Ela era 30 anos.
“I have never known a pain as deep as this. I am forever changed. Hoje, what our family and friends privately knew was the cause of death of my sweet baby girl, Cheslie, was officially confirmed,” a mãe dela, April Simpkins, dito em um comunicado obtido pela PEOPLE.
“While it may be hard to believe, it’s true. Cheslie led both a public and a private life. In her private life, she was dealing with high-functioning depression which she hid from everyone — including me, her closest confidant — until very shortly before her death,” Simpkins continued.
Although Kryst’s “life on this earth was short, it was filled with many beautiful memories,” sua mãe escreveu.
“We miss her laugh, her words of wisdom, her sense of humor and mostly her hugs. We miss all of it — we miss all of her. She was a vital part of our family which makes this loss even more devastating,” Simpkins added.
“Cheslie — to the world, you were a ball of sunshine wrapped in smiles. We talked, FaceTimed or texted one another all day, todos os dias. You were more than a daughter — you were my very best friend. Talking with you was one of the best parts of my day. Your smile and laugh were infectious,” ela continuou. “I love you baby girl with all my heart. I miss you desperately. I know one day we’ll be together again. Até então, rest easy and in peace.”
In lieu of flowers, Simpkins asks that any donations be made to Dress for Success, “an organization that was dear” to her daughter’s heart.
“If you or anyone else is struggling with thoughts of suicide, please contact the National Suicide Hotline at 800-273-8255,” ela adicionou. “Thank you all for continuing to respect the privacy of our family while we grieve.”
Simpkins’ own history with beauty pageants had a profound impact on Kryst as a child.
No 2002, Simpkins was named Mrs. North Carolina — becoming just the second Black woman to hold the title, de acordo com Charlotte Observer.
“I remember watching her win and going to appearances with her during her reign,” Kryst, who was also an attorney and social justice advocate, escreveu em um 2019 blog post for the North Carolina Bar Association. “Her title provided her with a platform to advocate for issues that were important to her and people listened.”
The experience inspired Kryst to start competing.
“It was a time in my life when I didn’t know who I was and wasn’t confident in myself. I was that little weird kid who had a unibrow and didn’t have any friends,” ela disse em 2019, de acordo com Associated Press. “I thought I want to be just like her.”
Following her death Sunday, a Extra correspondent’s family remembered her for inspiring others “around the world with her beauty and strength,” they wrote in a demonstração.
“Cheslie embodied love and served others, whether through her work as an attorney fighting for social justice, as Miss USA and as a host on Extra. Mas mais importante, as a daughter, irmã, amigo, mentor and colleague — we know her impact will live on,” eles adicionaram.
Se você ou alguém que você conhece está pensando em suicídio, entre em contato com a National Suicide Prevention Lifeline em 1-800-273-TALK (8255), texto “FORÇA” para a linha de texto da crise em 741-741 ou vá para suicidepreventionlifeline.org.