Willett, 27, got candid about her current state of mind on her Instagram Story Sunday, revealing — without naming Devenanzio — that she had been cheated on.
“This past week has been difficult,” 그녀는 시작했다. “The person I truly loved more than anything else cheated on me and I found out and I had to leave. I don’t know what else to say but I physically hurt.”
Willett, who was returning from a family trip to Hawaii, 계속되는, “I have been able to distract myself with beautiful beaches and hikes and my amazing family, but now I have to go back to reality. And if I’m being honest, I’m scared. I don’t know when I’ll stop hurting? When will I stop missing someone? What if I never stop replaying things in my head? When do I become angry?? I don’t want to live my life angry.”
“[그리고] you may call me a hypocrite, you may say I deserve this… and honestly that’s okay,” she added on a second slide. “I’m not saying any of this for you. I’m saying this for ME and for whoever out there doesn’t feel like enough. I’m looking right at that person and telling them that they’re beautiful and I’m here for them.”
A source tells PEOPLE Willett “is having a really rough time.”
“She loved Johnny and trusted him,” 출처는 말한다. “She is heartbroken that he could do something like this to her after all the time they’ve spent together.”
A rep for Devenanzio, 39, did not immediately respond to PEOPLE’s request for comment.
The former couple met on 도전: 세계의 전쟁, which aired in 2019.
지난주, Willett confirmed the two were “더 이상 함께” PEOPLE이 입수한 성명서에서.
“I’ve always tried my best to be an open book and after seeing everything circulate over the internet, I felt like I should let you all know that Johnny and I are no longer together,” 그녀가 말했다. “While I feel heartbroken, I’m thankful to know the truth. Johnny is someone I loved [그리고] respected very much and so I will be taking some time to heal and process it all.”